A Poem/Song I Wrote

Scar In My Heart

When I met you
It felt like a dream
I never dreamed of

When I thought of you
It felt like a reality
I always dreamed of
You were my 첫사랑

But Now....
You're just a scar in my heart
Slowly ripping me apart
Eating away all that is me

When I was with you
It felt like a love story
I always wished for

When you left me
It felt like a nightmare
I never wished for
You were my 첫사랑

But Now....
You're just a scar in my heart
Slowly ripping me apart
Eating away all that is me

Are you missing me?
Cause I'm missing you
You were the only one for me
And I thought I was the only one for you

Wow it's been one year at Bel Air

Today is officially going to be one year that I have been working with Bel Air in Folsom. It's my first job and I'm glad that I like it as well. I enjoy talking to the customers and making their day better. Not just that but I also like helping them find things they can't find and help them load their groceries.

Interesting Quote For July

"Just because an intention is impure, doesn't mean the process is too."

Fables

Today, I wanted to share two fables that I found interesting.

The Scorpion and the Frog

One day, a scorpion meets a frog near a stream. The scorpion asks, "Can you carry me across the stream?" The frog replies, "How do I know you won't sting me?" Then, the scorpion says, "Because if I do, I will die too." The frog likes his answer and decides to give him the ride across the stream. As they were in midstream, the scorpion stings the frog. Just before they were about to drown, the frog asks, "Why did you do it?" The scorpion says, "It's my nature."

The moral of this story is don't be surprised by someone's actions. If it has always been their nature, why would you expect any different. 

The Farmer and the Viper

One winter a farmer found a viper frozen and numb with cold, and out of pity picked it up and placed it in his bosom. The viper was no sooner revived by the warmth. Not too long after he turned on the farmer and inflicted a fatal bite upon him. As the poor farmer was dying, he cried, "I have only got what I deserved, for taking compassion on so villainous a creature."

The moral of this story is that the greatest kindness will not bind the ungrateful. Another way to put this is kindness is thrown away upon the evil.

Our Cruel World

Our world is cruel. It's nothing new though. This is something everyone learns as they are growing up. People can be selfish, greedy, and desperate. Everyone to a degree is selfish but there are people that are just bad to the point they don't realize what their doing is wrong. For example, two months ago I forgot to put my windows up all the way on my car up and someone ended up sticking their hand through the window. He or she stole my GPS and work apron. I didn't see it happen of course, but it's what I believe happened and the only explanation for what happened. This to me seems kind of sad because it makes me think we have these kinds of pathetic people living in our world. These people aren't satisfied with just ruining their own life but they try to come and ruin others as well. I'm talking about people that go on killing sprees, bomb places, etc.

This even applies to bullies. When it comes to bullies whether it's physical or verbal, it still makes a huge impact to the life of the person they are bullying. Some of these people that get bullied end up committing suicide because they can't put up with it anymore. Of course, I can relate to this. I have been a victim of bullying. I can almost clearly remember all the time's I've been bullied. I know the names of the bullies too but I will keep that out.The first time I was bullied was in elementary school. In this instance, it was physical bullying because I guess I was a nerd or something. I think the kid that bullied me had stuff going on in their life and took it out on me. To be real, he was a fob so beating me up probably made him feel better or something. He stopped bullying me though after I ended up "tattle telling" on him. This kid ended up going to my middle school and high school. It was nice to see that he changed and became a better person. The bullying continued in middle school and early years of high school. These instances were more verbal bullying than anything and a bit of physical. I was the nerdy, Asian kid that got all A's and didn't have really any friends because I focused in my classes. I  believe the constant verbal bullying is what made me not try in school as much. I had all A's up to my second semester of freshman year. Not only that but it did also make me think of trying to kill myself. I never cut myself or anything. I think i was pretty strong for holding up until the point I was at. I think most kids would commit suicide at some point in my life. There was one incident during the bullying that I feel made me a socially awkward an anti social person. To add to that, it has given me trust issues. In this incident, it was in middle school and I thought I made a good friend. In time, I ended up getting bullied by him. I really don't know why but it happened.

This will lead me to my next post about having a true friend.

Story Time

After I got off work today, I went to fill up gas. As I left the gas station on the way to the street light, I noticed a lady with a sign saying she needed help with food. There were so many thoughts coming at that moment questioning whether I should help her or not. I ended up driving past her and parked somewhere nearby. I walked up to her and asked her if she wanted some Burger King. She said, "Yeah, anything." We went into Burger King and I asked her what she wanted. I didn't hint or imply that it had to be the cheapest thing on the menu but she seemed to insist on having something from the dollar menu. I ended up buying her a cheeseburger and left her with the change. I made the decision to buy her food because I kind of know what it feels like to not eat. Since I moved out, I eat once a day at least and some days I don't eat at all. I really don't know how to feel about what I did. I hope that lady was telling the truth when I asked her why she didn't have a job and stuff. I hope that she survives because that's what most of us try to do everyday and it makes me feel great that I was able to help. Well that is my story. I hope you enjoyed it. ^_^