Monday, July 13, 2015

Our Cruel World

Our world is cruel. It's nothing new though. This is something everyone learns as they are growing up. People can be selfish, greedy, and desperate. Everyone to a degree is selfish but there are people that are just bad to the point they don't realize what their doing is wrong. For example, two months ago I forgot to put my windows up all the way on my car up and someone ended up sticking their hand through the window. He or she stole my GPS and work apron. I didn't see it happen of course, but it's what I believe happened and the only explanation for what happened. This to me seems kind of sad because it makes me think we have these kinds of pathetic people living in our world. These people aren't satisfied with just ruining their own life but they try to come and ruin others as well. I'm talking about people that go on killing sprees, bomb places, etc.

This even applies to bullies. When it comes to bullies whether it's physical or verbal, it still makes a huge impact to the life of the person they are bullying. Some of these people that get bullied end up committing suicide because they can't put up with it anymore. Of course, I can relate to this. I have been a victim of bullying. I can almost clearly remember all the time's I've been bullied. I know the names of the bullies too but I will keep that out.The first time I was bullied was in elementary school. In this instance, it was physical bullying because I guess I was a nerd or something. I think the kid that bullied me had stuff going on in their life and took it out on me. To be real, he was a fob so beating me up probably made him feel better or something. He stopped bullying me though after I ended up "tattle telling" on him. This kid ended up going to my middle school and high school. It was nice to see that he changed and became a better person. The bullying continued in middle school and early years of high school. These instances were more verbal bullying than anything and a bit of physical. I was the nerdy, Asian kid that got all A's and didn't have really any friends because I focused in my classes. I  believe the constant verbal bullying is what made me not try in school as much. I had all A's up to my second semester of freshman year. Not only that but it did also make me think of trying to kill myself. I never cut myself or anything. I think i was pretty strong for holding up until the point I was at. I think most kids would commit suicide at some point in my life. There was one incident during the bullying that I feel made me a socially awkward an anti social person. To add to that, it has given me trust issues. In this incident, it was in middle school and I thought I made a good friend. In time, I ended up getting bullied by him. I really don't know why but it happened.

This will lead me to my next post about having a true friend.

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